Monthly Archives: April 2012

If I only knew then…

I saw something today that triggered a moment of internal reflection. At first, it was more like one of those “if I could get in a time machine and tell the 20-something me…” then I started to wonder would it even make a difference?

We all have those “if I only knew then…” moments, um, I actually have a lot, but the one I was specifically thinking about today was my writing. I’ve always loved to write and from a very young age received positive feedback and encouragement on it (if we don’t count that one huge a-hole professor) Anyway, it was my dream to write, and at various stages of my life I wanted to write different things. In my teens I wanted to be a journalist, in my early 20’s a children’s book author, more recently a YA author, but what steps had I taken to accomplish any of these things…nada.

It wasn’t until I reached my 30’s that I even attempted to finish one complete book. I had several short things I’d written and lots of ideas, but nothing concrete. Don’t get me wrong, I’m so happy I finally did it. I’m living a total dream right now–2 books under contract in a three month time frame, amazing–but I’m still learning. A LOT. I have a ton to learn as a new author, and I feel confidant in saying my writing has improved greatly in the last year. It’s clear to me throughout my own work. I’ve seen amazing growth between Gossamer and it’s sequel, growth that I’m very proud of.

So this brings me all back to–why did I wait so long? Why didn’t I set my mind to getting published in my 20’s. It’s unfortunately a very easy answer. Self-doubt, insecurity, cynicism…all things I’m not proud of. I worried that just because some people liked my writing would anyone else? (I still totally worry about this by the way) I also thought, getting published is a dream, it will never happen to me. So instead of trying, I accepted failure on something I never even attempted. Looking back I could seriously kick myself.

How do you know until you try? My dad’s words, which to me unfortunately meant nothing at the time. The younger me thought I don’t need to try to know. Yet, during this time, I watched my childhood friends take risks. I watched as one juggled three kids and law school–she’s now an attorney, another took on medical school–she’s now a practicing obstetrician, and another took her amazing talent and turned it into a home based business. But me, I sold myself short. Why? Because I was scared of failure.

I’m so grateful that I finally took the risk. I still fear what others will think about my writing. I still wonder what the future will hold, but ultimately…I’m trying, and that’s all that matters.

Book Cover

I’ve been working on my cover art form for Dream On and have learned a ton of information about how book covers work from my critique partner Reagan. It’s super helpful having a friend who is also a graphic artist. She showed me several book covers and explained why certain things were done and how image placement directs our eyes to certain things without even knowing it. It was very interesting. Learning this really helped me describe my vision for Dream On.

Between my Gossamer cover art and working on this form, I discovered that most people don’t know that authors do not choose how their book covers will look. Unless of course you self-publish.

Thankfully, smaller presses allow authors to share their vision and then the publisher does their best to try and create that. If they feel it’s impossible to create or unmarketable for whatever reason they get the final say. Considering they know a lot more about the market than I do, I completely understand.

Now if you are publishing with a large publishing house (like most of the books on your bookshelf right now) authors don’t have any say. Maybe if you’re a super famous author you do, who knows, but in general it is handed over to professionals that understand graphics, trends, marketability, and all that other good stuff.

So, the next time you look at a cover and think ‘that’s not at all what I expected character x to look like’, maybe the author didn’t either. Or if you see a cover and love it and just have to buy it that very second, you can think of the team of people behind the scenes who created it.

In general there is so much more to publishing than–author writes book, book gets printed, reader buys book. Though time and time again, I talk with people that truly believe this is how it works. Although that sounds amazingly easy and a part of me would love such a simple route, there is a ton of work to get done before the reader ever lays eyes on it. Which is a good thing. I don’t care how amazing your writing skills are, everything needs a second pair of eyes (or more) on it. Everyone, from the author to the publisher, work very hard to produce that book.

That being said–Keep Reading!

Dream On

I’m excited to announce Dream On will be published by Lyrical Press!

You can click on the Dream On tab to get a little more info, but basically it’s about a dreamwalker who runs a business ending nightmares. A dreamwalker is a person who can cross into the dream realm in spirit form. This ability allows my main character, Emory, to manipulate dreams therefore ending her client’s nightmare. She is put into some crazy and awkward situations that she handles in her very own way. She’s funny, sarcastic, and can kick some serious ass. Dream On is packed with crazy situations, love, lies, mystery, and all that other good stuff.

Emory was definitely one of my favorite characters to create and I can’t wait to share her story with future readers. I really hope everyone enjoys entering her world as much as I loved creating it!


I just want to say a big Thank You to everyone who has helped spread the word for Gossamer. My fb page is finally up and I’ve gotten tons of amazing feedback on my stunning cover. So, to everyone who has shared/retweeted/liked/followed and all that other good stuff–thank you! As a new author word of mouth is everything to me so it is very much appreciated!

Oh and you must check out my author page on Lyrical’s website and you can click the Gossamer link to see it as well:

It’s here!!!

I received my Gossamer cover art today!! Don’t you just love it! Renee and Lyrical did an amazing job, as always.

About Gossamer:

Shouldn’t all faerytales end

with happily-ever-after?

Kyla Ashbury is nearing her eighteenth birthday when a mysterious boy appears at school. Her instant attraction to him inexplicably awakens something inside her and she discovers her true identity.
Now, armed with the knowledge of her past, she is forced to leave behind the life she has always known for a new one filled with temptation, faery charm and magic, and a future she wasn’t prepared for.
Kyla is left with a difficult decision…but no matter which path she chooses, someone will get hurt.